Chris, Trevor and I want to thank everyone so much for the outpouring of LOVE and support this week. We have been feeling everyone's love for Carmen and beautiful energy surrounding all of us who love Carmen and all of our children so dearly.
Thank you for the messages, phone calls, texts, flowers, photos of your own Carmen Celebrations - which seem to be many!
I know Carmen did not want us to be sad on October 9th. I know she wants us to continue working on ways to enjoy life as it is right now and to find ways to keep filling up our souls and others.
Experience takes effort so we made many things happen this week to fill our lives. There has been golf, zip-lining over waterfalls, a big strobe light dance party with a bunch of Carmen and Trevor's friends, lillikoi cupcakes, fairy wings, BEAUTIFUL flowers and many many messages of love.
I went to bed the evening of the 8th afraid of what may come up...in the same bed I was with Carmen one year before.
Those "lasts" came into my mind.
Then Carmen popped in my head and this is what I got...
Mommy, this day only signifies the earth going around the sun one full time.....don't be sad.
I wanted to post this beautiful message received yesterday from a student friend of Carmen's from Hualalai Academy.
I don't know if you remember me as much as I do you. Tonight on 10/10/13 I sit here at my computer remember the blessing that you brought into this world. At this moment right know I glance down to my right wrist where a pink bracelet sporting the words "TLP" "Smile and Be Happy" and "I Love You Carmen." It reminds of a beautiful story how a beautiful young girl came for a visit. She taught people to laugh and smile and enjoy the small things. Then one day she had to leave. When she left the people who loved her grieved and mourned. Suddenly a rainbow slid across the sky, and the people remembered how the girl loved the colors. They began to smile, she was still there but in a different manner.
She could still make them laugh and smile and enjoy the little things for she was all that.
So Team White, think of the things that make you laugh and smile. Enjoy the little things. Carmen is still here. She lives in your heart and my heart and in the heart of everybody she ever touched.
Thank you for her. Carmen is my inspiration. Some people want to be rich or famous or something great, but I?
I want to be more like Carmen.
God Bless, Halle
And we want to say Happy Birthday to Rainbow Jacquie (Carmen's energy/spiritual healer) who shares October 9th as a very significant day with our Carmen. They are connected in so many ways...forever.
October 9th, 2012 Jacquie told me the story of how (before she knew about Carmen that morning) she was swimming at Makapu'u beach Oahu and a monk seal swam right up to her and stared in her eyes for a LONG time...as if trying to tell her something.
She realized later that day why this had happened.
We love you Jacqui.
Love, Team White